Day 5 Sunday Continued
12:40--No rain, so hot, so bored. Only 1/2 hour has gone by, feels like 4. reminder, quit looking at watch. Down to 13 cigarettes. Don't know when we are starting this damm thing. Won't have enough cigarettes to get me though this.
2:50--Cast photos,what a hoot! We had to get on tree limbs. Acourse I stayed on ground level. Don't want to put my back out before the game starts. Guess what? They took some shots and then asked me to go on the top anyway. Uh oh, I thought, but I jumped up and climbed up. Don't want to look like a feeble old lady. We all got to giggle and actually ( even though we weren't supposed too ) talk ( whisper ) to each other. some girls I thought were mean were actually nice.
In the scheme of things, only you and Maddy really mean anything to me. It was so hot I had to put my hair in pigtails and that is how it will look in all the cast photos.
Crap
But we both know a ponytail is much, much worst. I know I look like Elle May Clampbett but I feel I had no choice.
Other girls all hot/sexy looking. I told them please don't stand next to me in the pictures. i tried standing next to Fred & Luke so I would look tiny like the other girls. Joking acourse. I should be over my insecurities but somethings stay with you no matter how hard you tryto make them go away. I am who I am ( quoting popeye ) And I am better than I used to be.
Oh yeah, then we were in our bathing suits too. All of them bikinis but me in a 1 piece. Thank God I brought one. We had to walk and run in the water. It was so retarded but fun at the same time. |